Archive | April, 2009


21 Apr

>So right after Christmas, my body decided it didn’t want to sleep anymore. I could fall asleep just fine, but then I started waking up too early. First it was 6, which was managable, then it was 5:30. Then 5:00. Then 4:30. Then 4:00. Sometimes it was even earlier. I would just wake up in a cold-sweat panic and wouldn’t be able to go back to sleep.

It’s really been an awful few months for me, I won’t lie–I think I’ve aged about 5 years in the last 3 months. As I got less and less sleep, I became more and more depressed and anxious, which made it harder to sleep, which made me more depressed and anxious. I’ve tried exercising which has helped my mood, but hasn’t helped with the sleep, so then I’m even MORE tired, not sleeping, depressed, anxious, whatever.

I’ve self-medicated with Unisom and Nyquil. I went to the doctor who gave me some Ambien and started talking anti-depressants to see if that would help. I opted to wait it out, just a little longer, to see if things would remedy themselves.

Miracle of miracles, three nights ago, I fell asleep without anything and woke up at a normal time! It happened again the night after that and then again this morning! I’m so happy. So relieved. And yet, there’s one thing holding me back.


This is nice Meredith:
This is naughty Meredith:
“Tell me, mother, how can I make your life more difficult?”
Clark has been, for the most part, a good sleeper from Day 1. Even now, he’ll just up and ask if he can go to bed. We had the newborn sleeplessness and a little roadbump when he was around Meredith’s age, but it was pretty easily remedied.

Meredith, on the other hand, is not a good sleeper. More specifically, I think she feels that if she could be sleeping alone or sleeping next to me, next to me is always the better option. When she was 2 days old and we were still in the hospital, I was sending her to the nursery at night and having them bring her to me to nurse. The nurse had brought her to me, but no one was coming back to get her, so I put her in her little bassinet and tried to go back to sleep. She fussed and whined and grunted, so I picked her back up (bear in mind I had had a c-section and this whole situation was probably not the best idea) and brought her back to bed with me. She curled right up in my side and went to sleep.

I know, I know, all those co-sleepers out there are telling me just to have her sleep with us. But I can’t. She’s co-slept with us a lot, particularly when I was still nursing her, but she’s actually done well sleeping in her own bed, for the most part, until lately. I need a little downtime from my kids, especially toddlers and preschoolers, and “toddler in the bed” does not qualify as downtime. She doesn’t sleep as well in our bed. We do not sleep as well with her in our bed. Often, in the middle of the night, she thinks it’s playtime when she’s in our bed.

These days, she does not want to go to sleep at night. Once we get her to sleep, she usually wakes up around midnight and then it’s a screamfest from there, whether she’s in our bed or hers. Sometimes I’ll get her to go back to her bed and then, a couple of hours later, I hear, “Mo-oooom! I done!” She’s not done. It’s 2:30 in the freaking morning.

It’s not entirely fault–in the last 2 months, she’s gotten a set of molars and had influenza, a double ear infection, and two exteremely high fevers without any other symptoms (my childrens’ pervasive and neverending illnesses since we moved to Louisiana are a completely different post…), so I know her routine has been messed up. But I don’t know how to fix it.

The awful thought of her not needing naps anymore has crossed my mind, but in my soul of souls, I don’t feel that she’s ready to kick naps; whether she has a nap or not, she still won’t go to bed at night and when she doesn’t get a nap, she’ll often fall asleep in the middle of something–playing, eating, sitting on the potty.

So all my sleeping-on-my-own victories are currently being vanquished by Little Miss I Hate Sleep.

So. Tired.

>The Detergent

6 Apr


Okay, so I have long been obsessed with laundry–like I remember being quite small, like maybe 10, and just hanging out in the laundry room because I was so fascinated with the idea of laundry-doing. I love the smell. I love clean clothes. I LOVE clean sheets. So imagine my WONDER when Sam got an offer to work in Procter and Gamble’s laundry detergent division! I mean, REALLY! We’ve gotten SO much laundry detergent and I’ve given a ton of it away, but we still have a lot. And I’ve agonized about how to organize it–like, in the last week, I’ve rearranged it 5-6 times, but it still wasn’t sitting right with me. My issues centered around a) box size, b) detergents I love vs. detergents I’m just okay with, c) Tide vs. Gain (Tide is better…if I use it occasionally for 1-2 months, it gets rid of all sorts of stains Gain can’t), d) using the older detergent first, and e) getting sick of using the same detergent for months on end. And then it hit me…in a flash of brilliance…I could empty ALL the boxes and then re-pack the boxes with different types of detergent, so I get a little more variety and don’t long for that bottle of Water Lily and Jasmine Tide at the bottom of the stack while I work through my 16 bottles of Gain. So that’s what I did on my Saturday night. Isn’t my life exciting?

The roundup:

–4 48-load bottles of Gain Apple Mango Tango
–12 48-load bottles of Original Gain
–3 24-load bottles of Gain Guava Groove
–8 24-load bottles of Tide Rose and Lavendar
–6 24-load bottles of Cheer with no scent
–4 48-load bottles of Tide Water Lily and Jasmine
–3 15-load boxes of Original Tide

Total: 1413 loads of laundry. If I average 8 loads of laundry a week, give or take, then I have enough detergent to last me 176.6 weeks. Which is 3.39 years. Did I mention we’ve already given a ton of this stuff away? Like CASES of it?

I also have 1 sample-sized packet of Tide Advanced Car that is being reserved for something very special…although I’m not totally sure what that is yet.

Here’s the arrangement:

The Key:

a: 3 boxes of 15-load Original Tide powder. For use on sheets only. Used with “g,” the 80-count box of Downy April Fresh dryer sheets.

b: 1 box of 12 Tide To Go pens

c: 12 boxes of 40-count Bounce dryer sheets, no scent

d: 6 boxes of 160-count Gain dryer sheets, Original Gain scent; plan to use with Original Gain detergent and Cheer with no scent.

e: Current bottle of Guava Groove Gain detergent. Am almost out. Unsure of where I will go when it is empty; decision may be impacted by current laundry sheet usage.

f: 1 box 40-count Bounce scent-free dryer sheets.

g: 1 box 80-count Downy April Fresh dryer sheets. For use on sheets only with “a,” Original Tide powder.

h: Bleach. Naturally, used only on white stuff.

Anyway, now you know the extent of my geekdom and neuroses. If y’all lived closer, I’d give everybody some, but as it stands, it would cost more for me to ship it to you than to buy it at the store. So that’s a GREAT reason to come visit me!!

>I’m here

3 Apr

>Okay, so I have not died…my life has just been crazy boring and crazy busy at the same time. I do have an elaborate laundry-related post in the works, but in the meantime, if you could vote for Our Best Bites at Mormon Mommy Blogs (check out the righthand sidebar), I’d surely appreciate it! Like maybe I’ll send you one of my many newly acquired Tide To Go pens or even a box of dryer sheets! Yeah, my life is THAT exciting.