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>Moving On…

6 Jan

>Yesterday, Meredith woke up and was still feverish. Since we’d been treating the fever for about six days, I called the doctor and they had me bring her in.

Sitting in the doctor’s office, I realized that after Clark’s 3-year-old appointment next week, we won’t be going back there. I love our doctor and hate that I have to find a new one. As I was driving away, I thought of everything I’d experienced there–good things like positive pregnancy tests, finding out Meredith was going to be a girl, hours worth of prenatal appointments. And there were icky things, too–puking in the waiting area, the nurse informing me that, after waiting for 1 1/2 hours, Dr. Berry had gone to another delivery JUST as it was my turn to be seen (and also that my pee smelled like Honey Smacks; it did, I won’t lie!), having them tell me to take my baby to the hospital immediately so they can run further tests on her.

I felt the same thing at the hospital while they ran some tests on Meredith to see what the cause of her fever was; this is where we had our prenatal classes, where my babies were born, where my friends’ and relatives’ babies were born; we all entered this stage of life together in the same place and now Sam and I are leaving that behind.

These days, I’m feeling very much the way I did during those last few weeks of summer after I graduated from high school and was getting ready to come to BYU. I’m so excited about the possibilites that are ahead of us, moving into the world of real, true grownups, but at the same time, I’m feeling very sad at what I’m leaving behind. When I moved here 8 1/2 years ago, I was a different person. I was coming off of nine terribly hard years and had had a lot of life experiences that made me “older” than some of my peers, but I was also twitty, irresponsible, and easily-provoked.

I feel like I’ve grown up here. I dated a lot and didn’t date a lot. After growing up in one place my entire life, I had to make an entirely new set of friends, which was something I’d just never experienced. I learned to pay bills (and what happens when you don’t), I gained and lost weight (then had two kids and started THAT all over again!) I fell in love and got my heart good and broken. I fell in love and got myself good and married. I lived with cockroaches in the slums of Provo (okay, the slums of Provo may not be the slums of Philly, but I still wasn’t leaving the house on foot after dark by myself!), and, looking back, the time Sam and I spent in those crummy apartments were some of the happiest times in my life. I’ve gone from letting my parents handle anything responsible and official to being the parent handling things responsible and official. It’s my name on the consent line and the relationship to the patient is “Mother.” When I actually think about that, it kind of makes my chest constrict in panic.

I’ve been driving around, taking one last look at everything that’s been significant to us–the places we’ve lived, the places we’ve worked. I think I’ve gone to Ream’s every day for a week now. We walk down to BYU for no reason, just to look around. But things have changed there–the dorms I lived in my freshman year are being torn down. The JKHB where I had the vast majority of my classes…well…I’m not exactly sure what the status is there, but I’m pretty sure people aren’t allowed inside. I know things have already changed and will continue to do so, it will just be more dramatic in the future because I won’t be here to see it all, so it won’t be a gradual transition.

So here’s my list on moving–what I’ll miss and what I won’t. Provo isn’t perfect, but it’s been more than home to me for a considerable portion of my life now and I’m going to miss it.


  • Being left behind. We’ve been here a long time as far as students go, and we’ve had a lot of friends come and go. It’s a sad and discouraging thing to watch your third generation of friends move on to real life and to be remain stuck in the college life.
  • The influx of students in the fall. Provo goes from being a nice, leisurely-paced little place in the summer to complete madness during the school year. And let’s face it…college students aren’t exactly FUN to hang around, even if they aren’t partying in the traditional sense.
  • Orem Wal-Mart on a Saturday night. Enough said.
  • BYU Bureaucracy. I went there. I worked there. I worked closely with them. I loved my program and I loved the jobs I had on campus, but there are some areas that leave me scratching my head. Off-Campus Housing, anyone?


  • My friends
  • My ward
  • Costa Vida, The Brick Oven, The Training Table, Smokehouse Pizza and BBQ, Noodles and Company, Magleby’s Fresh, P.F. Chang’s (yeah, I know some of them aren’t unique to the Provo/Orem Metroplex, but they aren’t in our part of Louisiana!)
  • University Mall
  • Ikea and The Cheesecake Factory–as soon as they come, I leave!
  • Being close to my family
  • Having a family doctor who I trust and like
  • Walking around on campus, especially at night
  • Provo in the summer


  • The adventure of a new place, somewhere I never thought I’d visit, let alone live!
  • Buying a house
  • Being “needed” in our ward
  • Making new friends

Anyway, I’ve rambled on enough. Who knows if anyone’s reading at this point. 🙂 Oh, and I know there have been several requests for hair pics. I was going to take some yesterday after I did it all cute, but then we found ourselves at the hospital all day long. So tomorrow, my little Smurflings. Oh, and by the way, Meredith’s fine–she just has a urinary tract infection and perked right up after we started her on an antibiotic.


>Merry Christmas 2007!

20 Dec

>So I’ve been postponing sending out our Christmas cards and letter because we still don’t know for absolute certain where we’re going to be in another month and I kind of thought we would by now. Let’s just say that we’re tentatively planning on celebrating Christmas in February, so for those of you whose names we’ve drawn for Christmas presents, you’ll get something SUPER in another few months.

ANYWAY, I’ve been thinking about doing a best/worst list for a few months now. Until we’re settled wherever we’ll be, this is our makeshift Christmas letter! 🙂 Suffice it to say that in our lives, 2007 definitely made up for any boredom that we experienced in 2006! So here it is, the good and bad, the highs and lows!

Worst Movie

I’m too embarassed to say. Suffice it to say that it was one of those movies that looked really funny in the previews and ended up being disgustingly vulgar and made me feel bad about myself as a mother, a Mormon, AND a human being afterwards.

Best Movie

Maybe this is a cop-out because it technically came out in 2006, but I’m going to say Casino Royale. But, in all fairness, I didn’t actually SEE it until 2007. As far as the smart action thriller genre goes, it was a tight race between Casino Royale and The Bourne Ultimatum, but the jolty camera work in Bourne and Daniel Craig in a pair of swim trunks gives Bond the edge. No, being serious, they were both really, really good, but (and this is coming from someone who isn’t really a James Bond fan) I really liked seeing the origins of Bond and I liked seeing a buffer, tougher, had-my-nose-broken-a-few-times Bond. There’s a certain cultural “mythology” associated with James Bond and it was fun kind of exploring that.

If you’re going to get technical on me and say it had to be made and released in 2007, I’ll say Enchanted.

Worst Moment

Having to move and find new jobs 5 weeks after I had a c-section and 4 months before Sam graduated from college. That was awesome.

Best Moment

It was the last night I was in the hospital after Meredith was born and I had Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip on in the background. My recovery had gone so smoothly (with the exception of my bizarre, torturous rash) and I was feeling so good (and I’m sure the Percocet and Prednisone had nothing to do with THAT!). The room was about half-lit, the hospital was quiet, and I was waiting for my doctor to come see me for the day. Meredith was lying in her Boppy, so content (like she still is) and alert, just staring at me, and I felt like we knew each other.

Runner up? Sam graduating!

Worst New TV Show

Now…I didn’t watch all the new TV shows, so I’ll have to do the worst TV show of what I did watch. And the winner is…Journeyman! Now granted, I didn’t think it was ALL bad, but I haaaaaaated his wife with a passion and stopped watching solely because of her. And now it’s been cancelled.

Best New TV Show

Either Pushing Daisies or Chuck (which, coincidentally, I started watching because we accidentally recorded it instead of Journeyman.) They’re funny, smart, endearing, and sweet.

Biggest Question Mark

Where we’ll be living a month from now! Louisiana? Salt Lake? Washington? You tell me! No, really, tell me! I’m going crazy here!

Worst Book

Okay…this may get me murdered in my sleep. By a vampire. But I hated the Twilight series. I actually liked Twilight okay–I mean, it was definitely young adult fiction and it was pretty amateurish, but it captured my attention. New Moon was tedious, but there were moments in Eclipse where I literally felt my throat close up and also felt pity for the author and the cheesiness of it all. Apparently, no one in Forks does anything but murmur, mumble, grimace, groan, or grin. Toothily. Oh, and Bella. Bella, Bella, Bella. Quite possibly THE most annoying heroine ever. My disclaimer is that I don’t read romance, let alone teen romance, so this definitely wasn’t my genre and I should’ve known that going in. But, alas, I got sucked in (muahaha…oh, Kate, you’re so funny).

Best Book

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Granted, it’s been a rough year for me reading-wise–I’ve been too tired or too stressed (or both) to do a lot of heavy-duty reading, but this really, truly was a masterpiece. Nearly every loose thread, seemingly-insignificant detail was tied back in. I know some people thought the symbolism was heavy-handed, but it didn’t bother me (but then, I don’t have a problem with religious symbolism). I may have been 5 weeks postpartum when I read it, but I’m pretty sure that I’d bawl like a baby all over again when Harry turned the stone over in the forest and walked with those who had gone before him to his fate.

TV Show That’s Gone Most Downhill (For Me):

Law and Order: SVU. More like Law and Order: Olivia’s Story. I miss Munch and Finn.

Best TV Show We Watch on a Regular Basis:

Lost. Hands-down. I love The Office, but nothing compared to the second half of Lost Season 3. I mean, seriously. Every. Dang. Week. I about peed my pants (with, of course, the exception of Jack’s trysts in Thailand; I absolutely hated that episode.) Warning! Spoilers ahead! From Locke blowing up the communications hatch to Sawyer finding the real Mr. Sawyer (in that fateful twist with Locke…and gotta say that Sawyer Sr. got what was coming to him!) to Ben’s unbelievably creepy flashback to finding the underwater hatch to that amazing season finale (for which Matthew Fox’s lack of any kind of awards recognition is an absolute abomination!) It consistently hit its stride every week, building up to that finale. Of course, all that momentum was lost due to starting the season in late January rather in September AND with this stupid WGA strike. If we only get 8 episodes this year, well, I’m not going to be so happy.

So now that 2007 is almost out of the way, we have all sorts of new adventures in front of us: buying a house, buying a car, maybe buying a refrigerator (apparently houses in Louisiana don’t come with appliances), probably moving halfway across the country. All in all, we’ve been very blessed–we’re all happy and healthy, Sam is officially DONE with school, no more apartment managing, and we have all that we need and a lot of what we want. Or we will soon. 🙂 We have amazing family and friends who support us and love us (and we love you, too!) We have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in our lives and the knowledge and peace that comes with it. We hope ALL of you have a Merry Christmas and a New Year full of things that make you as happy as Lost, Harry Potter, and babies make me.


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